The question I keep asking myself and laughing, is this a quarter life crisis? Or is this the best decision I’ve ever made? On paper I have sold my house, quit my 10 year career in cyber security and am leaving everything and everyone I know with little to no plan and a one way flight.
I like to think my best and worst quality is I’ve always had a ‘fuck it, why not’ attitude and a desire for living a life with zero regrets. I’ve always had a plan, specific goals and worked my ass off to get there. ‘I want to earn x amount by x age’, ‘I want to buy a house’, but I think I’ve realised after hitting them, they maybe weren’t my dreams and more embedded goals that are set by society, there is something freeing about having no plans, no set goals and a new hunger for life.
It’s now two days until I leave on my next venture and I may not have packed, but I have sat down with a glass of wine and spent a few days on the beach with my glorious and also slightly nuts friend Alice (see previous Australia post) who along with her equally brilliant friends gave me a kick to post on my blog. On the beach, I finally had a bit of brain space to reflect, mainly about what I’ll miss and what I won’t and thought it may be a good topic for a blog post. So without further ado …
Things I will miss
⁃ The Vine: obviously takes the top spot (sorry to all my friends and family), my second living room, £12.50 bottles of wine on a weeknight, the laughs, tears and love shared. It’ll be strange not being able to end a week and walk into a room of familiar and mostly friendly faces.
⁃ My Family: I am so proud to be a part of unit of such brave and strong humans, who have had their fair share of adversity over the last few years, but treat every day and every challenge with love and strength. Especially my mum and sister who are both incredible and I’ll just have to play my part of our girl power trio virtually for the time being.
⁃ My Friends: I am shocked that most of these people are still alive, but I’ve never felt so surrounded by love and empowerment. A special shout out to Niamh, who over the last year has become my right hand woman. From wild swimming in the peaks, to career evenings, moving my house, making me an auntie to the fattest dog alive and taking me in for our sleepover that’s lasted the last 8 weeks so I wasn’t unemployed AND homeless. I could never thank you enough.
⁃ Baths: everyone who knows me knows I have a candle lit bath with music blaring almost everyday. I’m not sure hostel showers with no hot water are going to quite hit the spot.
⁃ My two mattresses and overpriced mattress topper: When I bought my house, this was the most important thing to me, I think I actually delayed getting a fridge for two weeks so I could have the biggest possible bed and added to it almost every payday I was there. It’s probably one of the reasons I haven’t packed.
⁃ Burger bites waffle fries: nothing more to be said, an instant cure to any of life’s inconveniences.
Things I won’t miss:
⁃ The weather: this one is obvious, everyone is happier in the sun.
⁃ Annoying men: probably one of the other reasons I haven’t packed yet.
⁃ The sound of a Microsoft teams call in a morning before I’m fully caffeinated: although I appreciate I may have to start working again at some point this year, I will not miss that noise. That being said, I will miss my incredible, creative and brilliant colleagues and speaking to them everyday.
⁃ Socks and pants: the idea of having less things to do in the morning and living in a bikini suits me
I’m not sure if it’s that I’m on my second glass of wine now, or if it’s genuine happiness, but scrolling up and looking at the difference in list sizes, I feel so grateful to have so much to miss.
I will do my best to keep this updated, but in the meantime, always remember:
If in doubt, remember you can always quit your job and leave the country.
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